Extremes

Balance.
Yesterday I was in Napa..Sitting on a blanket..sipping wine..eating grapes and olives..sleeping in a bed with oversized blankets and swimming in a pool till the skin on my fingers started to look like a newborn child's ass.

Today dirt fills my fingernails from the sweet peas I am planting. I am sweating profusely because I am in a 110 degree greenhouse. I slap the fly that hits my knee..extremes.

I have gone from one extreme to the other.
I am learning how to adapt.
With each surrounding that I am placed in.
You have to do this because there is no guarantee in anything.
This journey has taken me through many extremes.
Through many layers of myself...the more I see. The more I feel. The more antsy I get to feel and see more.

I will not lie. I miss stability. I miss consistent relationships...consistent sleeping patterns..knowing where my life was going each day.

But life is about just being...Just being in the present moment...We can constantly strive for more..never finding satisfaction in the present moment...but we will never be able to completely LIVE if we worry about making the present moment better than exactly what it is...and that is life...the very moment that you are living right now.

Embrace it all.

People come and go.
Money comes and goes.

But the present moment is all that we have. Living in that moment is the hardest part of life...it is my life challenge..my life goal.